I was in the store today picking up a few stocking stuffers when I walked by the intimate apparel section. They had displays of sexy Teddy’s out for gift ideas. Briefs with double entendre written across the back side.
Driving around town I hear ads for local lingerie shops. A sultry voice talks about the great outfits and accessories available. I wish there was someone in my life excited about me and wanting to buy me sexy gifts.
I miss Steve. The last couple days I’ve donned lace underwear and sweaters that accentuate my chest. I’ve been feeling sexual. New Years is coming and I want to go wild like in a teen again. But I don’t want another one night stand. I don’t want empty sex. I want comfort and warmth, desire and passion.
Even if Steve and I were together we wouldn’t be together for the holiday, so why then the heighten awareness of his absence? Why am I so sexually charged?
I’ve been spending time thinking about what I want in a real relationship - Lingerie Wholesale. Revisiting those things I outlined when I left the ex. I’m saddened this part of me that’s been unleashed through the affair will have to be suppressed once again. In order to get a different result I have to act differently right? Since I no longer want a relationship based purely on sex, I have to subdue the libido and put forth this other persona. It’s really too bad. Just when I was getting good.
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